As I sit here
In this new space
I look around
It's so peaceful here...
God spoke to me last year and told me to prepare myself.
You see, I was praying to God and asking Him to do so many things in my life, then wondered why I haven't received them. I never thought I had to prepare myself to receive them. I was expecting God to "pour me out a blessing" without doing any work. Is not faith without works dead? To be honest, it took me a little while to fully receive what God was asking me to do. Then, I was forced to put in work to change some old habits that became unhealthy. Being forced to do anything is tough. This was especially tough because I was so comfortable with those habits. They had become a dysfunctional safe space for me. I was never at peace. I was defeated in my battle with anxiety and became so tired, not physically but mentally. For instance, I was asking God for peace but I was not preparing myself for peace. I kept putting myself in a chaotic situation expecting God to perform a miracle on my selfish behavior. But, I knew I wanted things to be different in my life. I wanted things to be purposeful, as well. Change should always start in the mindset. I had to and NEEDED to change my mindset. This was and still is a very important ongoing process. Some days are harder than others because I want to go back to what's comfortable. I'm learning to position myself to receive greater.
There are times where preparation requires me to be still in certain areas of my life. During this time, I am listening and learning while God is moving. Being still can be tough as well, but I've realized that when I am "still", I am in the right position to better recognize and receive God's blessings
To anyone who may feel that your prayers are going unanswered, please ask yourself, "ARE YOU PREPARED FOR WHAT YOU'VE PRAYED FOR?" And, please make sure what you are asking for is according to GOD'S WILL and not YOUR OWN!
♥️Sincerely Eliza
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